A terrible day

Today has not been good. We did put Tundra down - and my heart broke. I did go to the vet to be with him, but had to leave early and wasn't able to be there when they took him back. I don't know if I could have handled it being in there when they gave him the shot. But sitting in the room before they came in just broke my heart. He was shaking like a leaf - did he know what was in store? He is such a sweet dog - well, he's been crankier in his old age but he was still sweet.

The vet checked out his toe (which had grown three times the size from 2 months ago - I could show pictures but i don't think you'll want to see it) and told Tim that it was a tumor that could have been fast growing cancer or slow growing cancer. Either way, he would be in pain until he died - so, we ended his suffering. Poor, poor Tundra.

Tim said that Duke was wimpering this afternoon - guess he missed Tundra, too.

So, we took pictures last night. I wanted one last picture will my little poopsie. When my laptop is up and running again I'll post pictures.

I had to leave the vet early because I had an appointment with the Doctor. Yesterday I started to feel what i thought was a cold coming on. But, I couldn't breath very easily (still can't) and the pain killers just wasn't working (still isn't). When I laid down, I felt like I had a huge weight on my chest. Oh, breathing hurt. So, after cold/flu medicine I started to feel better - and began to think it was a waste of time. But, after sitting in the waiting room for 45 minutes and then 15 minutes in the exam room, I felt like crap. I started to get the chills and then started feeling warm, my chest really really hurt, my head felt like it was being hit with a 10 pound hammer, and my ears were starting to hurt. I was so miserable. Wait - I still am miserable! So, I've spent the day in bed, alternating being hot and cold, in severe pain, and coughing to no end. I am starting to feel better again - but it will only last for an hour or so and then I'll be feeling like crap. Oh, I was told I have bronchitis and a sinus infection. It is a good thing I don't have to work until Monday!

There was a bright spot in the day. While being thoroughly annoyed at having to wait 45 minutes, the nurse took me back and took my temp and breathing. Then she asked if I wanted to be weighed. Hello! Does anyone who is 60 pounds over weight WANT to get a scale? I passed. Then as we were walking back, she said she'd take my blood pressure. Now remember - I was at this point in a lot of pain. I told her that I was at ___ (you think I'm gonna tell you?). She looked at him and told me that was very high. I wanted to say - You think? Then she asked me when I had it checked last. I told her it was earlier this week at the Fitness Center - and then she looked at me weird and chuckled. She thought I had told her my blood pressure - and then said I must have thought she was rude for saying it was very high. I shrugged - I'm overweight and I know it! No sense in getting upset about it =)

The one bright spot in my day. Wait! I took the quilt to get quilted, so that is good, too.