Hurt Feelings

I try not to let my feelings get hurt and let things roll off my back. If I do get my feelings hurt, I get over it pretty quickly. I don't want to hold a grudge because it doesn't help anything. Do I care what people think of me? Somewhat - I don't want people to think I'm a stuck up snot or a rude person. But, if someone doesn't like me then they don't like me and I can't change it. I also have to remind myself that I can't read everyone - and that they may be shy (like me) rather than stuck up. They may be loud and obnoxious but really quite friendly if I let myself get to know them. (It is really hard for me to get to know people - I may talk alot, but that is only after I get to know someone).

I explain this because I don't know how to read a comment made to me and I'm going back and forth on whether or not to take it one way or the other. Here's what happened:

Tuesday, we got a message reminding us of the scouts service project this Saturday. I explained to Ster what he will be doing and he told me that "I'm not going to feel good on Saturday and won't be able to go." Okay, lets start young faking an illness! Anyway, at our Relief Society thingy last night, his scout leader asked if i got the message. I told her that we did and then I told her what Ster said. Her response was: He doesn't have to go if he doesn't want to. However, her facial expression and the tone of voice gave me the impression that she didn't want him there.

Surely I'm wrong, right? I am trying really hard not to get upset thinking that she doesn't want my son at the scouting event. I keep telling myself that I don't know her well enough to read anything into what she said. She hasn't ever been overly friendly with me (and we live pretty close to each other), but I haven't gone out of my way to get to know her, either. For all I know, that could be her typical way of speaking and that she was just trying to be nice by giving him a way out (which is what i keep repeating to myself). But in the back of my mind I keep thinking that she doesn't want him there. And it hurts. But if she doesn't want him there, then she doesn't want him there and I can't change that. I'm not going to force him into going - so if she really doesn't want him there then she'll get her wish. On the bright side - one less kid for them to have to keep track of!